I'm a real nurse!

Don't mind the hideousness, this pic was taken at 3:13 am
Well, I finally did it. I'm a legit, true blue, seriously serious nurse. I did my capstone in the labor and delivery unit at the University of Utah. I talked to the nurse manager about perhaps getting a position there and she gave me a firm, "Sorry, we don't hire new grads." I was SO disappointed but had accepted the reality of my situation (no job prospects at all) when I got a call from her offering me a job! It's been so crazy trying to learn all of the procedures and protocols but I am so happy and I love my job! The plan is to work here for a year before going back to midwifery/women's health nurse practitioner school next August. Hooray for graduating and getting a REAL paycheck!

The elephant in my mind

For the past few weeks I have been looking at my blog thinking, "I need to update that." I could post about the NCLEX, my new job, the 4th of July or some random thing about Hudson. That's what I have been telling myself to do, but I know that would be avoiding my feelings and the REAL subject on my mind for the last two weeks. So as much as I have been wanting to avoid this post and pretend this has not really happened, it is time to face it. Two weeks ago my beautiful, hilarious, witty and fantastic Aunt Linda passed away. Her death has left a huge hole in my family and I can't imagine life without her. She was 9 months pregnant with a darling baby girl. They have listed her cause of death as an "amniotic fluid embolism" although we have not received the autopsy report to confirm this.

I have spent the last weeks feeling confused, angry, and devastated. I wish that at times like this we had answers. I wish I had a complete understanding of God's plan for Linda and for her children. I have researched and contemplated how and why this has happened, but I know I just have to have faith that there is something going on that is much bigger than me and my broken heart. Please pray for Linda's husband, children and struggling baby Charlie. The next few months are going to be extremely difficult for them.